One year ago I had massive self-confidence problems. I thought I would be ugly and immensely stupid. That was the time where I quitted learning coding because I thought I could never do it.
Maybe this is in some sort normal and every girl has to go through this. Only that some girls have this “crisis” earlier, some have it later, some struggle with them their entire life and some never have it.
Or maybe because so many things in my live have changed since last year, that I was firstly extremely overwhelmed but after some time “forced” to become more grown up.
Why? Society, as always
And whose fault is this? Society, as always. They teach us “girls” always to be princess, wear pink, be nice and cute and most importantly: Always look perfectly. Society expects this from us.
When you want to break out of this “doom-loop”, most of the grown ups around you aren’t helping you but judge everything you do negatively and try to dissuade you. No wonder I still have days where “fall back” into my old scheme of feeling stupid.
Go Society, you make our life quality so much better!
It got immensely better
This is all is now in the past. I don’t have these issues anymore, I am more or less confident with my look and motivated to write, learn coding and do new different things, everything that I wasn’t motivated for last year ago – at least most of the time.
I even sometimes say to myself that I look good and am beautiful and not always point out the negative things about me.